Done

October 3rd, 2015, 6:46 PM by Goddess

Because why wouldn’t I get a whopping traffic ticket on top of everything else … and then come home to those motherfuckers upstairs screaming at each other?

I made a mistake and yelled SHUT UP at the top of my lungs, which I know they can hear.

The problem is, they do hear it and will fight all night just to spite me.

I can’t stop crying and shaking. I’m done. I need God to tell me like right now what I need to do to get off the universe’s shit list. Because I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I just can’t anymore.



Can’t take much more 

October 3rd, 2015, 8:11 AM by Goddess

In the 14 years I’ve written in this blog, I’ve noticed something. When I only post positive things, more good things happen. 

And now, when I post about the shitpile of things that go wrong, it only seems to manifest more. 

I’m listening to the noisy noodles upstairs. Thundercunt is screaming, the kids are screaming, it sounds like they are wearing cinder blocks for shoes, and someone appears to be chopping wood and missing the logs and hitting the floor with a machete. 

Meanwhile the world goes on, the madder I get. 

I try very hard to be gracious and grateful that, say, the Walmart hacker only stole my $50 gift card that I was saving to buy a little wine fridge. Walmart won’t reimburse me. Fuck you, Sam. 

In any event, it’s tough to manifest good things when you’re violently awakened each day by Thundercunt’s verbal assault on humanity. I dream of this woman’s demise. But it seems the only bad things I generate are happening at my own expense. 

I used to tell mom not to wish for them to chill or move or die.  But to instead wish for wonderful rewards for us. 

I just wish they would STFU long enough for my nerves to unshatter so I can follow my own advice.