Dreamed about my grandmother.
She passed 25 years ago.
I got to hug her. And she smelled so good.
I got my love of designer perfumes from her.
We had a pier cabinet inside the front door. One shelf was for her perfumes. So I could always sneak a dab on the way out the door.
The last perfume I remember her wearing was an Elizabeth Taylor one. I want to say it was Passion. Whatever the purple one was.
She bought me White Diamonds. Haven’t worn it in forever but it makes me think of her when I see it.
In the dream, everything was perfect. I had a beach house. We were watching Taylor Swift videos because my grandfather had said in the dream that he loved “Fearless.”
Mom was there too. She was feeding Cocoa in the kitchen.
Hugging Gram felt so real. I squeezed her so tight. She kept saying I’m sorry, I’m sorry.
I said don’t ever be sorry. You didn’t want to leave.
If anyone is sorry, it’s me for telling you it was OK to leave. I didn’t think you would.
I think this all stemmed from being in Ross Dress for Less yesterday. I got invited to a gala and I was looking for some shoes.
Since it’s Christmas, they have perfume gift sets by the register.
They had Mugler Elixir for $34.99. Pretty sure I spent $300 on my bottle of Mugler’s Angel. The girl in line behind me and I smelled the Elixir and agreed it was awful. So that was a no-go.
They also had a Calvin Klein Euphoria gift set for $34.99. JACKPOT. I haven’t had Euphoria in years.
Anyway I remember saying, “Thanks, Gram,” when I picked that up.
This all makes me realize what a charmed life I’ve lived.
My family didn’t get a good life. Lots of bad things happened to all of them.
Meanwhile I have them all on my altar, and I call upon the power of the universe to give me all the good fortune they were denied.
If I know all of them, they are conspiring to give it to me.
Thank you, Gram, for that hug. This little orphan child really needed to see and touch you.