Cognitive dissonance
For both the hiring and the moving.
Don’t get me wrong — the apartment is perfect for me. But I’ve just made a major purchase (not to mention getting raped by Comcast for digital cable/internet when it comes on the 7th), so I feel kind of drained, both financially and emotionally.
I’m really tired. I was psyched about starting to move tonight, but I think I’m going to crash and just get an early start tomorrow. I just can’t decide whether to cry or to laugh — I know I’ll be laughing soon, but I guess I’m really missing my family today. My mom never missed a move and always worked round-the-clock with me to get it done. Although, the poor woman always ended up helping me do the final cleaning of the apartment, as nearly all of my roomies in the past saw fit to take off and dump it on me because I actually cared about leaving the place in good shape.
At any rate, I just don’t know what I would have done without my mom during those stressful times, but I guess I do know now … I wish she were here. *sniff*