Friday Five on a Monday.
Rejected title: Better late than pregnant
1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
Securing my promotion and handling it like a champ with next to no staff. It’s always nice when people say, “Gosh, I just don’t know HOW you managed to do that job all by yourself for so long!” I have an amazing portfolio that I can’t wait to share with potential future employers! 😉
2. What was your biggest disappointment?
Depends. My biggest disappointment with myself is that I had about four million ideas for businesses I’d like to start, and I didn’t have the necessary discipline to actually put a single plan in motion. My biggest disappointment with (some) others was because of some of their actions that really, really hurt me. And the lack of apologies really burned my toast. I mean, are people that fucking stupid that they didn’t know that they were trampling on my heart?
3. What do you hope the new year brings?
Inner peace and outer beauty.
4. Will you be making any New Year’s resolutions? If yes, what will they be?
I have always been pretty balls-to-the-wall, say-what-you-feel-whenever-you-feel-it, but I made a resolution last year to introduce tact into that quality. And I’ve succeeded somewhat — I have cultivated this amazing ability to say exactly what I want to say at the exact moment I want to say it, and I can leave people not knowing if they were just insulted or complimented. That, my friends, is a gift that I don’t mind having.
BUT …
I have lost some of my assertiveness, and I WANT IT BACK. There are several fights I could should have picked this year, and I either walked away from or simply downplayed my reaction to the things that irritated me. I kind of justified this as not caring enough to find out what the fuck the other person was thinking when they did/said whatever incensed me. I always hope that people will go away and think about what they did to cause me to want them out of my life, but that’s too passive-aggressive for me — I should take some small amount of joy in telling someone that he or she was a complete fucking asshole and that reparations need to be made. But when I get burned, I shut my heart down where that person is concerned. It takes a lot to make me become numb, but when I reach that point, there is no return. Ever.
In any event, I want to be more assertive in the new year. Damn it. 🙂
5. What are your plans for New Year’s Eve?
I’ll be hosting a get-together for a few other wayward souls. And let me tell you, this is the one time of year that I absolutely DESPISE being single and having no one to kiss at midnight (this year being another shining example), so I choose to surround myself with amazing friends to remind me that I really do have a lot of love in my life.