I have neither the time nor the crayons to explain this fully enough
But …
If I have not replied to an email that I find incredibly demeaning …
To follow up a comment that someone went out of their way to repeat five times because I had to pretend I didn’t hear them, for their own safety, because I found THAT incredibly demeaning …
Assume that I was doing my level best to not hop through the monitor and deliver a punch in the face.
I was special once. I get that I no longer am. Which I said in reply since I couldn’t just keep on keeping my head down to stay out of trouble.
I also said I know I need to learn my place because it isn’t as high as it once was.
And that was satisfactory enough.
At least, it got me the space I needed to get back so desperately.
But just when I think I can’t die more inside, there goes another piece.